Thank you for sharing your story. I am in recovery too. Have you ever heard of Celebrate Recovery? It's a Christ-centered 12 step recovery group much like AA, but we also have 8 principles based on the beatitudes. And we unashamedly recognize and declare Jesus Christ to be our one and only Higher Power. The ministry of CR has helped me gain victory over my addictions for over 6 years now, but it has also shown me what it looks like to follow Jesus. I hope you will check it out.